I could not cater to many people at the center today. There were one or two learners who took up the majority of my time and they were mostly interested in just talking and hugging me. These learners recently lost a parent and clearly seem to be affected by the loss. It is clear from their own words and actions that they see us to fill up this gap in their affection. I felt today was a big challenge with these learners. Given how troubled they were I struggled to reprimand them. When I did try to dialogue too these learners would break down and begin to cry. As a result of this I almost ended up pampering them. This created some jealousy and challenges from the other learners at the center who felt that my treatment was unfair. Finding a balance seems really hard in this sort of scenario. It is hard for me to know when I’m pampering them and when I need to be there for them. I’ve tried to set some non-negotiables in hitting and fighting, and also equal distribution of resources to all learners but even on top of this asking to be lifted up etc has led to some unfair treatment. I’m trying to keep in mind the progress of these learners and slowly start to ease in things for them but this has also been quite challenging to figure out exactly and define progress. The one advantage that I have reached right now is that the learners are currently stable at the center and they don’t leave. Even when they get annoyed at my reprimands they return to me after some time. In this regard at least I can attempt to dialogue with them slowly. I’ve noticed that they are at least willing to promise me that they would stop hitting though that does not necessarily reflect in their actions.